Theres always that wee bit of hope lingering down the stream of despair. That faint light which might just blaze upon that slight breeze. But all seems to be lost in the hollow darkness just like that of a black hole. Theres expectations or hope about something that drives a person to the strech of his mortal stay in this world. Fresh from a so-so interview, waking to a clear and warm morning of spring. A kick, out of the blue about the result of the interview drived all that laziness to the backseat. An array of rejections in numerous companies leaves one heartbroken and the future now dwells on the verdict that is on the agenda this day. the anxiety just blurred the whole world around me it dimmed the words, the sight, the sober chirping of birds, the dancing leaves and even the lectures of our class. Never was so much concerned about the result of recruitment but, the expectations of friends and their confidence on me just accentuated my anxiety and that crave to excel. The busy gait of our placement coordinator along the corridor through the scuttling crowd, his mobile as usual seemed stuck to his ears. There was that hint of a news, that irrefutable negative vibe about his swagger. Still there was that hope against hope, i tried to converge my thoughts to whatever good things that happened during the interview but all those efforts became victim of mockery in the face of that unbearable news 'you are not selected for the company'.a lump in the throat, frown on the face symbolyzing the steep downfall from thereon, the whole noise around me just went mute. my mind strayed all around and about the thought that i have let down everyone, specially my parents and my friends. I felt like a failure, the first time i realised how hard can one get hit by life specially after 10 odd rejections. No other concern except that same question, relentlessly pounding my skull 'what lacks in me, why im not as better as others?'. Still i dare to stand up and brace myself again for the final battle and yet again HOPE for the best.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
hope
Theres always that wee bit of hope lingering down the stream of despair. That faint light which might just blaze upon that slight breeze. But all seems to be lost in the hollow darkness just like that of a black hole. Theres expectations or hope about something that drives a person to the strech of his mortal stay in this world. Fresh from a so-so interview, waking to a clear and warm morning of spring. A kick, out of the blue about the result of the interview drived all that laziness to the backseat. An array of rejections in numerous companies leaves one heartbroken and the future now dwells on the verdict that is on the agenda this day. the anxiety just blurred the whole world around me it dimmed the words, the sight, the sober chirping of birds, the dancing leaves and even the lectures of our class. Never was so much concerned about the result of recruitment but, the expectations of friends and their confidence on me just accentuated my anxiety and that crave to excel. The busy gait of our placement coordinator along the corridor through the scuttling crowd, his mobile as usual seemed stuck to his ears. There was that hint of a news, that irrefutable negative vibe about his swagger. Still there was that hope against hope, i tried to converge my thoughts to whatever good things that happened during the interview but all those efforts became victim of mockery in the face of that unbearable news 'you are not selected for the company'.a lump in the throat, frown on the face symbolyzing the steep downfall from thereon, the whole noise around me just went mute. my mind strayed all around and about the thought that i have let down everyone, specially my parents and my friends. I felt like a failure, the first time i realised how hard can one get hit by life specially after 10 odd rejections. No other concern except that same question, relentlessly pounding my skull 'what lacks in me, why im not as better as others?'. Still i dare to stand up and brace myself again for the final battle and yet again HOPE for the best.
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